kesekian kali …

:: Bismillahirahamanirrahim ::

never give up !

:: Bismillahirahmanirrahim ::

Alhamdulillah…

Presently I was keep wondering.. how and how ? What and what?

How and What I should do to improve myself..

The answer theoretically I had read from motivated articles, entry or either books

and heard from all my beloved friends opinion..

but in this situation.. it is all about me!

how and what should i do as a “starter” a new me after slip and falls?

hmm…

As a sudden.. came across …

” PRAY to Allah and let HIM let your way dear…” the phrase whispered to me …

and … YES! THAT`S IT

You plan and Allah also plan and he is the BEST Planner!

I got a SMS yesterday morning about my application as a cashier at K17 mini market..
and I was selected.

Alhamdulillah.. He gave me answer to all my pray..

Kak Salmie and her husband owned the mini market, they put a very high reliability to me..and Insyaallah hopefully this is the best choice for me in this moment…in order to support my studies..

yet…I love to do business..hopefully this is a jumping stone for me to involve in a business and learn practically seems kak shanany and abg helmi willing to trained me to be a businesswoman ( Insyaallah build my skills to follow the path of Saidatina Khadijah khuwalid my admired sahabiah)

hmm… this job is offered to SPM level ..but for me.. it is nothing to be humble or shame if I am as a master student grab and do this job as long as it is Halal and dear me.. you are learning to live!

Insyaallah the salary is enough .. when it have barakah ..
Amin!

hmm… I am admit.. I love to put myself in a risky position or situation..hmm.. donno why..but for me, this is how I can improve myself .. huh! risk taker? yeah.. heeeeeeeee and most important this is how i learn to put all my reliability on ALLAH ..which the secret ingredients is never give up!

and this is what I call the experimental of my life ! heeeeeeeeeeeeee

Ya Rabb.. the way i choose ..what decision i made, is will be always based on YOU and the best from YOU because only you knew what is the best for me!

p/s: Kak Salmie’s 7 years old daughter name Nur Alifah Aisyah heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..she said when she call me, she fells like call her own daughter

once upon a time …

:: Bismillahirahmanirrahim :

once upon a time..
a moment i missed

hmm.. its hard and its heart..

i need to choose …
stay and faced it..
or
walk away and leave it

once upon a time..
in that moment

I choose to stay
I choose to faced it

hmm.. its hard and its heart..
screaming in silence

now.. i need to choose again …
stay and faced it..
or
walk away and leave it …

LailatulQard Hunter …

:: Bismillahirahmanirrahim ::

MEET @ aNNuur huhu~

Here is a motivated line for sharing:

Kita juga tahu bahawa kita tidak dapat dan telah banyak mengabaikan umur kita yang lalu dengan perkara sia sia dan dosa justru kita harus bersungguh sekarang untuk membina kualiti hidup kita dengan menggunakan umur yang baki ini secara efektif dimana, kita cuba sebaik baiknya untuk menggunakan satu unit waktu kita dengan satu unit amal dan ini memerlukan kesungguhan dan perubahan yang drastik.

what happen?

:: Bismillahirahmanirrahim ::

Previously entry I had written about poetry and the song.. the recent entry is the lyric and the song …

hmm..

behind the lyric there was a story ‘hidden’ hmm..

erm.. nohing much to share here… let it be a ‘hidden’ story ..

OK ! Alhamdulillah!

I try my best strunggle handling my problems and emotion.. Alhamdulillah when we back to ALLAH..back to  Quran the solution will breezelly shower a inner peace into your heart.. Alhamdulillah …

TRY MY BEST ! ALLAH KEEP ME GOING !

Alhamdulillah!

Subhanallah!

Saydina Ali menasihati kita agar kita sentiasa istiqamah dan berterusan dalam amal

Hati ini terkadang memiliki kecenderungan menerima dan terkadang menolak. Bila dia dalam kondisi menerima, ajak ia untuk melakukan ibadah dan sunnah. Tapi bila dia dalam kondisi menolak ajak dia melakukan yang wajib sahaja. Sampai kondisi menolak itu hilang, ajaklah dia kembali melakukan yang sunnah

One Day – Trading Yesterday …[silence]

:: Bismillahirahmanirrahim ::

If I could change the currents of our lives
To make the river flow where it’s run dry
To be a prodigal of father time
Then I would see you tonight

If I could find the years that went away
Destroying all the cruelty of fate
I must believe that love could find a way
Tonight

Lonely finds me
One day you will come
But I’ll wait for love’s sake
One day to me, love

If I could see beyond the here and now
If you could hear me calling you somehow
If I could know that love is reaching out
To find you with me tonight

Then hope could make these promises come true
Beyond what I could say, what love can do
With every moment leading me to you tonight

Lonely finds me
One day you will come
But I’ll wait for love’s sake
One day to me, love

I will stay forever here to wait for your love

If I could change the currents of our lives
To make the river flow where it’s run dry
To be a prodigal of father time
Then I would see you tonight

Lonely finds me
One day you will come
But I’ll wait for love’s sake
One day to me, love

Lonely finds me
One day you will come
But I’ll wait for love’s sake
One day to me, love
One day to me, love
One day to me, love

I will stay forever here to wait for your love

same no change huuu~

:: Bismillahirahmnairrahim ::

This evening I got an idea to reconstruct my methods as my supervisor suggested last week…

hmm.. after review back to the coding.. it is a lots of things I need to reconstruct again ! argh!

but what’s make me feel better is.. I had a justification fact o prove there that’s there is no reason to change any ..because it will result the same thing! haha

my supervisor agrreed ..huhu or he dont care (ye la research aku..nanti viva pepandai la jawab) adeh!

what ever! what I know I had my answer to protect my research yeah! Insyaallah!

hmm next is get know deeper about your research in this case youe suggested algorithm..!

recently … I am down.. donno why…may be my heart is sick..huhu..

however I try my best to keep going…

I know Allah always with me…. but me..? hmmm… be strong!

[silence] * [.....] = Leave Out All The Rest

:: Bismillahirahmanirrahim ::

I luv the lyric ..so meant to me for some reason I don’t understand… hhmm? someone share with ..hmm..

hmm.. something to study ..ha?!

dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I’m done here

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don’t be afraid
I’ve taking my beating
I’ve shared what I’ve mean

I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that ive done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that ive done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are
I can’t be who you are

OOOoo Lord breezly put a piece into my qalb…

ayat ke-60 dari surat Al-Mukmin yang berbunyi Wa qaala rabbukum ud’uunii astajib lakum (Dan Tuhanmu berkata: “Berdoalah kepada-Ku, niscaya Aku akan mengabulkan (doa)-mu”

berhati-hatilah diri … peliharalah… segalanya telah ditakdirkan… bersabarlah …

and for a moment..i miss ..

:: Bismillahirahmanirrahim ::

..i miss someone..

a lot of memories since we meet .. again..

turning back to time looking back to who I am before…

hmm.. for a thousand times i slip and falls …